Monday, October 25, 2010

Return from AWOL land

This post has been a long time in the writing. I've been meaning to write it, and thereby get back into blogging again, for about a month now, but I just kept putting it off.

Why did I stop blogging in the first place? Simple: life got too much. Or rather uni did and I decided to just quit as many things as possible in my life, culminating in my skipping the last 3 weeks of uni (they STILL didn't kick me out, though) and not doing much instead. I spent the summer teaching English and swimming at some of the local beaches. Pretty nice, all round.

Then Ramadan hit. I always enjoy Ramadan - always. Except this year. This year was tough. I wasn't in the right frame of mind when it started, I didn't ever really get into the right frame of mind and I don't feel like I actually made the most of it. In Islam we believe that fasting Ramadan correctly and performing extra prayers will atone for all past sins. So at the end you (hopefully) get to start again with a fresh slate. While I believe/know that God's mercy is infinite, I really feel like I blew it this year.

After Ramadan I had to go back to uni, and that has been more of the same old stress, culminating yesterday in total depression. It was so bad that I decided to cancel the day and just veg out in front of the TV and/or sleep.

Today, I'm back. :D I've been reading blogs for about a month now, (although, I haven't been commenting) and trying to find my groove. Part of the reason that I haven't blogged in so long is that I basically felt that I sucked at this. Then today I decided just to look up my blog (to see if I could remember the address, *blush*) and reading through a few posts, I really didn't think they were all that bad... so here I am. Ready to keep my arse in gear and write blogposts on a highly irregular, erratic basis.

I'm back.


  1. I've been thinking about you - hoping you were OK!

    I'm glad your back! Blogging can be overwhelming sometimes, I definitely feel you on that one, I just love it so much that I keep making time for it.

    I hope you start to feel better and more upbeat soon and you can find some balance in your life :-)

  2. Your posts are wonderful. Write whenever you feel like it but don't feel bad if you don't post for a while. I've got you on Google Reader so I'll see it when you write something.

    BTW I was really inspired this year by a few of my friends who were observing Ramadan. It made me wonder if a non-Muslim could celebrate it - even if just for one week? I think I would get a lot out of the experience. Have you ever heard of anyone doing that?