What am I doing?

This is a question I’ve started to ask myself sometimes with regards to my Masters degree. Some (not all) of my lecturers are not exactly great, and that’s putting it very kindly. I can sit in a 2 hour lecture and not learn a thing. Add to that the fact that admin is taking forever to sort out our paperwork, so I don’t have a student ID card, or even a library card, which is clearly a problem. Although, that’s not the real reason why I’m questioning myself. I know that admin will, eventually, sort themselves out – they always do – and my research projects will be researched and completed using library books and other resources and it’ll all end well.

My real problem is with my lecturers. Honestly, I think that the majority are – thus far – wasting my time. I’m not learning anything new. Today, for example, I spent over 45mins listening to a lecturer discuss an issue with some of the other students, whilst another lecturer last year explained the issue and summed it up, with all the different opinions in about 10mins. Furthermore, and what’s worse, is that they don’t really motivate me to study. Last year, I’d come out of a lecture and want to do more work. Not so this year. Although, I suppose, that motivating me isn’t really their job, thereby making it my issue with me. I’m going to have to motivate myself this year and push myself with my studying as well as the rest of my life, to accommodate the shift in my responsibilities, as a grad student, job-seeker, friend, Muslim, a member of 2 communities (expat and Algerian) and a family member. I guess I thought that it was going to be like last year.

So, I reckon that now would be a good time to state my New Year’s resolutions, except that I don’t think I will just yet. I need a little more time to stew on them, as I’ve read so much about setting resolutions that are keep-able that I would like to apply to my list this year. I’ve pretty much picked them out, but will probably divide them into things I want to do/have, and habits I wish to form... we shall see. I’ll probably have them up here by the end of the week.